*Inhales deeply*  . . . . . . . .

Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, FUCK!!!!

. . . . . . fuck . . . . . . .

fUuck!

I want to leave.
I want to leave.
I want to leave.
I want to leave.
I want to leave.
I want to leave.
I want to leave!!!

[[[For anyone that is about to read this, My Apologies.]]]

FFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!

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Humph, not even this helped me feel a tiny bit better, pathetic.

Yay! Prom is tomorrow!!! :D

At the moment i'm super nervous cause I hope that everything works out. I probably won't feel relaxed until I'm eating dinner, lol. But that's okay. So my dress is lime green, I have silver shoes, got my nails done (meaning Gel nails) for the first time and they look really nice. I like them. I also went tanning for the first time ever on Tuesday. It's alright, but I wouldn't do it just to be tan. I will need a real reason to do it, like for prom. I've gone three times and yesterday I kinda burned, but just a little on my stomache, lol. but honestly, I wasn't expecting to come out perfect something bad always happens, lol.

Tomorrow, I am getting my hair done at around one. I need to pick up Zach's boutinner at 11. Mom's doing my makeup, and umm . . . I dunno. Oh! Zach and I are meeting up at Derek T's house with a different group and then meeting my group at PC (Prairie Center) at 5. Then we're on our way to prom! :D Sucky thing is we're not going in a limo, not that I'm really complaining. I know they're expensive, I just liked the idea of arriving in one like I did for my polish prom last year. But it's all good, as long as I don't have to drive I'm not going to complain.

SUNDAY: I am planning on going with Al to downtoen since it's May 3 - Polish Independence Day!!! ^^ If anything, i'll take Al with me and go with Lorie and her friends and then kinda separate in the end. I dunno, still have a little bit of time to figure it out. The real problem is MONDAY. I don't know if I should do Senior Ditch day or not. Cause all of my friends are either going to school because of Harper classes or because they can't miss anymore days of school if they don't want to take the finals. And if they are ditcing, they either want to just sleep or are working or I dunno. So it's messed up :'(

YAY!!! 

So, Mito won From G's to Gents! I'm sooo happy :D   Even though I love Blue also, I think that Mito definetly deserved to win. And besides, Blue is an official member of the Gentleman's Club as well and gets a home from Bentley. So it allll good :))))

.......

Prom tickets are being sold THIS saturday and I STILL don't have a date, Fuck. Honestly, if I don't someone then I don't wanna go stag. But I really really relly wanna go to prom. I hate senior year, some how I feel like there's far more stress now then last year ... damn ....

.......

So. This is my view for Valentine's Day:

If you're with a person for more than a year and I guess some relationships below that, then it's a nice "holiday" to have. BUT If you're at the just beginning stage of a relatioship like let's say, two three months, then Valentine's day is mostly ment for a breakup to happen. And we all know it's true, once you think about it. So far FOUR of my friends have broken up with their "boyfriend/girlfriend" and I am still counting. 

And besides, why should there be a day for people to show their affection for one another??? You should show your love to that certain someone each day, not just on Val's day. Stop putting all this crap in one day. People waste so much money on one day for things like flowers, chocolates, and restaurants and then they're done for the year, I think it's sad and pathetic ...

Oh wow.

So the past two weeks were all ups and downs, I kid you not.

(1)Last week I finally got my braces of, three months in advance, yay me! Lol. Went to the movies with Al and saw He's Just not That into You. This past monday felt like a friday and I was so convinced that I wasn't going to come in the next day to school. That was until my sister came and shattered my happiness, lol.
(2)This whole week was just weird and messed up.
   > Gym in odd we're playing pickle ball, who the hell made this game up?!? I mean honestly, how bored were you of tennis and badmitton to make this game up???
   > I have to make a rediculous book for survey about anthropology and it's monkeys evolutions ... yay ... NOT. Comes out that I am the only girl in my group. But it's not all that bad I guess cause JB and Neil are doing the story so that leaves me with the pictures, not good but whatever. And then there is Derek W. He has no idea how to work on his own. He needs to be told what to do or he won't do anything. Not good.
   > Math sucks, I almost failed the last test, and 
   > AP Psych isn't going too hotly either and we have MID TERMS next friday, shit ...
   > Creative comp is fun but the teacher scares me he noticed that I don't have braces and anounced it to the entire class, and now he calls me 'Nelli Baby' NO NO NO NO NO! Teachers have no right to call students anything like that! It's just simply not done!
   > Cinema, I like it. Watch movies all period and then write a bit. Nothing bad. Plus I have Carnes and she amazing and funny. I had her sophomore year so I know her fairly well.
(3)Today was Abe's 200th birthday. Most people actually wore black but I think that the bigger reason why they did was that EVERYONE owns black so most people were bound to wear black anyway, lol. One teacher actually dressed up as Abe Lincoln himself, a litle creepy cause it wasn't halloween but that's okay. I can deal with it.
(4)Tomorrow is friday the 13th, pretty exciting eh? eh? Lol. Whatever. Nothing special. But then Saturday, big day. You know why? Of course you do, everyone does. It's Valentine's day. And I must admit I'm not particularly fond of it, Al and I both don't believe in it. Just a hallmark holiday as many people call it. But for those who are in a relatioship like it, no shit, lol.I don't care. I'm going to the movies with some girls that day and then hopefully just had out afterwards. So it should be fun. I'm going to see He's Just not That into You again :) but I do really wanna see the shopocholic one really bad, lol. Umm, I guess that's it. I still have a lot of homework to finish even though I don't want to do it ...

 
       He's Just not That Into You,

AMAZING movie. 
           --------->>>I'll most definetly see again in the 
            theaters! :DDD
 

I can't WAIT till tomorrow!!!  :D